I have been absent in my blogging. It has been about a month since I have seriously sat down and reviewed or written anything substantial. It started out with the business of life getting in the way – getting ready for the holidays, playing chauffeur to daughter, mother and father (parents car is in the auto graveyard), super-charged job hunting, a couple of blizzards, and so on.
There was also a major delightful distraction. I am now an Auntie!!! My brother and his wife gave birth to a handsome boy and I cannot express my delight! First time as an Auntie and cannot wait to babysit and teach this kid some fun ways to terrorize his parents. Hey, my brother did it with my daughter.
In addition to these life distractions, inspiration was also at a low. Not in what I was reading but in what I wanted to say and how to say it. The written language seemed to have taken a vacation. I would try to write a review or a general post and become so distraught I my general lack of focus that I would give up telling myself that tomorrow would be a better day. It wasn’t. The fact that I had reviews that were late just added to the feeling of failure.
I finally sat down with pen and paper (still my favorite way to express myself) and started writing, anything. I am by no means a keeper of a personal journal or diary but I have found there are times when jotting thoughts, ideas, and concerns reminds me that I actually do like to write and share and communicate.
I was again excited to blog and wrote (pen and paper again) a few reviews and some ideas for other posts. I woke up one morning a couple of weeks ago feeling energized and ready to get back on the blogging track. I started up my laptop and found my email, reader, and blog had disappeared.
I was able to log-in to everything but a blank screen faced me at every turn. My blog itself was still present but the admin panel showed nothing and would let me do nothing. Then, my computer froze. Reboot – froze again. Reboot – able to get around for a few minutes and then the big freeze. Perhaps the below zero temps and 3 foot snowdrifts had something to do with it. I had to blame something.
Long story short, I have been working diligently and with much frustration on trying to resolve these issues for some time now. I was able to check out a few other blogs and comment but this would lead to a computer freeze-down after only a few minutes. So, of course, no blogging.
I would just like to apologize to those authors, publishers, publicists and distributors that were generous enough to give me the opportunity to read and review some wonderful books. I have not forgotten. My lack of inspiration is the true culprit. If I had stayed focused and consistent in my blogging my computer troubles would have surfaced and been resolved sooner.
Perhaps I have burned some bridges and rightfully so. I certainly hope I will be able to earn back the confidence that I am serious about my book blog and my obligations. I will be working feverishly to catch up on those reviews that are due.
I would also like to apologize to my readers (if you have stuck around – thank you for your patience)!